tune this.

where does my own dial need to fall. right now it's still spinning like crazy. this is the most unrewarding and unsatisfying work ever. please, spend all day "getting the work done." where is the creativity? the joy? the what? bullshit. so what is the evacuation plan? get to a decent place, then make the next big move. this is not it. this is not it. ask yourself what it is that makes the happiness.

je suis de pittsburgh.

zero.zero.zero.

lil bow wow.

best friends. out of town sex.
roller skates. chris rock.
pregnancy. contemporary times.
winter. soup. headcold. iphone flirtation.
francesco clemente. new york.
halloween. fairies.
and coffee.

everything counts in large amounts.

ok. it's clear. i got it.
there's a goal. a big one.
i made it. i gotta reach it.
can i do in a year, what it took me 12 years to create.
damn.
screw the marathon.
i've got my own race. aw-snap.

in honor of grannies and grandpas.

the next.

when the current norm of everyday is symbolized by the triangle of change, one can only accept this fate with an aloofness for worry and problems and move on to a healthily selfish, problem-solving state of mind. i'm gonna be, i'm gonna be, i'm gonna be. word.

pumpkin carving, the least of my skills.

plaid is the new black.

what happens when your former aura color, purple, is now a kinda not so pretty forest green?

tug.

i've felt the tug for the last eight months and i wonder where it will pull me. a safe escape? the right destination? the next phase? the time to share all this? even my boss is having omniscient dreams about us, feeling the power of the tug. pow.

poppa.

cuando necisite un amigo especial, habia alex. esta como una alma doble de mi. gracias a dios para la energia que el y yo tenemos. mi papa dame un gran sonrisa cuando estamos juntos. jaja. viva la kimmie.

so there i was dancing with my new best friend's pseudo young boyfriend amidst the modern white walls, near the actually really exquisite popping and locking european man, thinking of nothing but my next glass of wine and the music...when BOOM jealousy hit. across the crowd i see my new bff's face green and fuming. he won't look at me or at his pseudo, but all personality is gone, and like a difficult sister he has turned the entire room to ice.

working on new list of rules to live by...

be inclusive
choose adventure
deal with it in 24hrs or let it go
smile with friends
don't back down
direct, underscored with kindness
lead as you want to be followed
speak your truth
experiences not things
everyday time for you